jewelry boxes

well it starts off with me about to take a bath. but its not in my bathtub or restroom. the bathtub is like one of those old white shallow ones with the four legs at the base. well anyway, i turn the nob, get undressed, then slip in. i put my headphones in my ears. pick a song, close my eyes then as soon as my ipod leaves my fingers onto the table beside the tub i hear like a sniffle. i freak and open my eyes an once i do im no longer in a restroom. im in like a desert outside, where the ground is cracked and gray. ugly. i look down into the water but its not water anymore either, it this black sticky tar looking stuff. i slowly stand up and im wearing clothes now, but im still cover in this disgusting fowl smelling gunk. i get out of this tub and start to walk. everything is dead. the sky is like black, depressing and hopeless [[i have a sort of odd obsession with the sky in reality so this really hit me hard in the chest when i see it]]. then i finally see a sliver of silver light in the horizon and i just start running to it but the more i run the farther it looks so i stop. then it just disappears, and its completely pitch black. then this LOUD purr of what sounds like a huge generator vibrates through the air and i turn around to see a single beam of light shining down on a woman, slender, and in a black tutu. a ballerina i guess. she starts to dance in place, spinning and moving her arms around. she reminds me of like one of those ballerinas in jewelry boxes. I get closer to her and see the black crap that im covered in is in her hair. like gel slicking her hair back into a bun. i get to the edge of where the narrow light meets the dark but i dont step into the light. but when i do that shes spinning and she very slowly stops. like in slow motion. then finally she freezes. and i stare at her. for a real long time, until i muster up the courage to step forward. but before my foot goes forward i stuck a deep breath in like im being strangled and i wake up.

nearly half way on the floor hanging off my bed. im guessing i scared myself wake by the sensation of me falling.

but i REALLY REALLY want to know what this means. i have really strange dreams, im just really lost.

any help?

please and thank you. ~♥
the ballerina girls skin looked powdered and polished, her face i couldnt really make out but her eyes were blue and that was all i could see of her. that and the outfit she was wearing. black corset, tutu but pink shoes, which were dirty.

Tagged as: ballerina, ballerinas, bathtub, beam of light, bun, deep breath, freak, gunk, headphones, jewelry boxes, loud purr, nob, odd obsession, restroom, silver light, single beam, sliver, slow motion, sniffle, tutu

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